Avengers, Anxiety, and Aging

We went to a movie tonight, and I had several panic attacks. Not because the movie stressed me out, but because I feel like I am starting to learn my role in all this, and I’m absolutely terrified. The more I learn and better I see, the clearer all my distractions are.

The trickiest part for me is how to convince anyone that this ridiculous theory is true, and how to get it out to the masses. There have been a bunch of books along these lines, without the same theories. But that essentially said that vision is all in the mind. Those theories didn’t take to mainstream, and there’s no way that these will.

I’m at peace and am easing my anxiety by meditation of sorts. Maybe more of eye exercises. But if the eyes are the keys to the soul, and our eyes are worse than ever, are our souls worse than ever?

The mission to be a better athlete somehow took me to this point. To play better tennis. To run faster. To look better. To age slower. The answer is easy: the mind. The solution is not always as simple. And there’s no possible way that I can promise immediate results, but I know that I can help people.


Some ideas to consider: why are black people better athletes? I always thought that this class of people was bread through slavery to be superior to other races. What if their demographics, diet, and culture are responsible for this? What if we are in fact created equal?

What if the first thing that ages is the mind? Then the body ages. The eyes are the first signs of the brain aging.

Obviously, these are all theories at this point. I was hoping to find some pools of data to pull from and just make some correlations. No luck so far. And I don’t know that I have the time, the energy, or the resources to see this thing through.